It was hours before our naked and sweaty bodies separated and I came back to reality. The way my body had responded to him amazed me. I couldn’t even call what Jessica and I had done together sex. He took his time with me, allowing my body to open up to him, to submit and become his. I could still feel his lips on every inch of my skin. I couldn’t believe I’d resisted him for so long. At the same time, I tried to ignore the voice in the back of my head screaming at me in disgust. No matter how much I’d wanted to be with Kevin, being gay was not something I was okay with.
“Do me a favor.” He said, breaking the silence.
“Mmmm.” I hummed into his chest trying to silence the noise in my head.
“Don’t ever pull a stunt like the one you did with Beth again.”
“What?” I asked stupidly. I knew exactly what he said and what he meant by it.
“You heard me.”
I curled tighter into his body trying to play off what I was feeling. “It wasn’t that big of a deal. Got your attention didn’t it.” In truth, I hadn’t planned on doing what I did but I couldn’t stand his coldness anymore. In a split second, I’d decided to cross his line, become the alpha and challenge him to his territory. I knew he wouldn’t be okay with me taking control. It wasn’t until I was half way through my stupid plan that I realized what I was doing. It wasn’t just about him and me, I was hurting Beth. But when I saw him and the emotion burning in his eyes, I knew I couldn’t back off. I had what I wanted and like chasing a high, I wasn’t going to stop until I got more.
The night he hit me I’d made a mistake. As I watched him the following weeks, I began to realize I needed him in my life. I didn’t care if it was wrong. I was addicted to him. I couldn’t help it.
“I’m not fucking kidding. Don’t go there again, got it?”
“What’s your problem? I’ve seen you do a lot worse.” I tried deflecting the guilt I felt. He did do a lot worse but I still couldn’t help think of how disappointed Jason would be and I knew I was going to have to figure out a way to apologize to her. He tensed underneath me and I noticed his hand twist and clench the blanket.
“That’s the point. That wasn’t you out there, that was me. You’re better than that. Don’t fucking sink to my level.” I looked at him evenly and saw that his face was tight with control; he actually meant what he said.
“Hey, okay. I’m sorry. I know it was wrong. I promise, I won’t do it again.” I hesitated, wondering if I dared continue. “Can you promise me the same?” At his look of shock, I almost laughed. “I know you’ve got your rep to protect but if I can’t be a jerk then either can you.”
His tension started to wave. He flipped me on my back and his lips began to kiss their way up my abdomen and my body shivered.
“Quit making deals, you made me wait far too long for this so be quiet and let me play.” He whispered before finding my lips and deepening his kiss. My back arched up to connect with his body. His hand gently moved down my chest and then stopped abruptly. He rolled off the bed and smiled as he pulled a pair of jeans on. My body immediately protested his absence.
“You’ve got to be kidding.” I blurted out before I realized just how desperate I sounded.
He got his self-satisfied grin, “Afraid not. Now get ready to go. We actually have to go to school. Don’t want to be accused of disappearing again do we?”
Title: Violence Begets
Author: PT Denys
Genre: YA LGBT Fiction
After a tragic accident devastates his family, 16-year-old Rick St. James starts his junior year of high school without any friends in a suburb of Salt Lake City, Utah. When he meets Kevin Vincent, he’s too distracted by the promise of new friends to see that Kevin has secrets of his own.
Having created an environment where he’s feared and admired by his classmates, Kevin finds pleasure in using his good looks and violence to control and manipulate those around him. Secretly, he cruises the gay club scene, turning tricks to earn money so he can party and get high.
As Rick’s dad becomes increasingly violent and abusive at home, the two form a surprising and volatile trust. In this battle of wills, their precarious friendship will either keep their lives from blowing up around them or possibly light the fuse that will cause the explosion.
PT never imagined she’d actually publish a book. But, the story of Violence Begets… haunted her for over 20 years, and the lives of Kevin and Rick had to be shared.
In addition to writing a sequel, she divides her time between family, work, attending theater and reading.
Above all else she loves being a mother to 2 amazing daughters (a teenager and a baby).
PT believes that no one deserves to be intentionally hurt (physically or emotionally) by another. She also believes that behind nearly every bully is a story.
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